I love Sundays.
Back in my school days up until before I got employed, Sundays meant celebrating with the Lord, spending quality time with the fambam (seeing my cutie niece, S, at church; eating lunch out with the parentals and biological frenemies [siblings]), and taking the time to rest and reflect on life matters before plunging into another hectic week.
As I have mentioned before, things have changed. My schedule, for one, knows no weekends or holidays or standard 5-day work days. This time around, I count in flying hours. I have my whole month plotted out for me by other people and it’s up to me to decide when to include my (anti-)social activities. But, I also have the option to bid for, or exchange, work days with someone in case I need to be somewhere at a specific date. So I guess my schedule is more flexible? LOL I don’t know.
All I know is that my Sundays have not been spent the same way since. Sometimes they’re spent in another country and I find myself hearing mass at some century-old cathedral… or not at all (if that other country is in the Middle East). Sometimes they’re spent going the extra mile by attending Hillsong services. Sometimes they’re spent with my church community (mostly for practices with the Praise ministry). And sometimes they’re spent working, making me attend anticipated mass instead.
I realized today that I miss the order that Sundays bring to my life. Right now, there aren’t any more “hectic weeks” to take a break from, caused by my being an ulirang mag-aaral (LOL whatevs) or corporate elf. My offs also fall on weekdays so there go my need for “rest”. I spend time with my family and friends then, though it still isn’t the same. I guess what I’m trying to say is that the only thing I have total control over is the time to (force myself to) reflect, so I decided to start another series of posts which I am calling my Sunday Soupie. Think random thoughts and alphabet soup (which is also pretty random, hihi).
I am hoping to make this a weekly thing to, you know, try to bring back a certain order to not only my Sundays, but my life and, oh gosh, this blog. I am not promising anything because I am bad at keeping blog-related promises so I’ll just get right to it.
Just last Monday, I completed my final hours of driving school! Yes, I finally made time to learn how to drive! AFTER 3 YEARS OF SETTING IT AS MY GOAL OMG WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY RESOLVE. Still no car to drive and still no practice since Monday since the parentals aren’t around right now to accompany me… but I’m pretty confident that I’ve got all them motor skills down pat. All I need now is a non-pro license and a few more hours of driving with my dad in the passenger seat. (Hopefully, in time, they would stop panicking.)
Aside from this, I’m also finding the time to cook more dishes. Not just because it’s my 2015 resolution to learn how to cook at least 1 dish per month, but also because I have to feed myself or my parents might find me dead on the living room floor once they come back home from their vacation. (Also because having fast food delivered is as unhealthy as it is expensive.)
Oh, wow, so many blessings recently. A notable one for this edish would be that I now have an almost 2-month old legit niece (like, from the loins of my biological frenemies, LOL). LOOK AT THIS CUTIE —
Aside from her, I’m also thankful this week, specifically, for having the means to take cab rides to and from the north. It is such a hassle to commute from my place especially when the weather isn’t cooperating and I have a specific call time to adhere to. Yesterday, I had to attend a church seminar and also be back home in time to watch Kalyeserye (haha, guilty) and prepare for work. It was raining and I only had an hour to spare! Just. Thank You, God.
I was looking through pictures of my friends on Facebook awhile ago. It showed them hanging out, celebrating a friend’s birthday and I thought, “When did I stop being part of this group? Was I ever in it in the first place?” I don’t know why but I get that feeling every time I see similar photos of the same group of people. When I think about it, on paper, I am basically part of that group. But then I realized, I don’t think I’ve consciously exerted enough effort to cement myself in that said group… Maybe because I’ve long decided I didn’t want to. Or I didn’t find the “fun” things they do fun. (Like seriously, my idea of fun is staying at home, reading a book or binge-watching TV series.)
So why I do I feel this way?
I think the reason why is because even if we didn’t have a lot of things in common, we did bond at some point… and what I loved most about them was when they decided to show their hearts. (Irony alert from the person who doesn’t have one, lol.) But seriously. I valued the times when we had interesting intellectual conversations.
Today, I found myself disappointed that I wasn’t up to speed on the lives of some of the people I was most fond of in that group. Apparently, a lot of things have already changed. I don’t know why I felt a few seconds of sadness ’cause I’m not even sure if I’m worthy to be privy to such information. I’m not usually invited to get-togethers or whenever I am, I usually have something to do or I usually decline ’cause I already envision the flow of some of them. I feel like if I had the opportunity to set the environment myself, it would be better. But I don’t think I have the privilege to do that either.
K. Such an introvert problem. But that’s my confession. So, bye.
I have decided to
follow Jesus, no turning back, no turning back focus my efforts on people who are there and are willing to share their lives with me. Sadly, I feel like that number is slowly dwindling too because… life? But anyway, I’ve also decided to take it upon myself to really give time as well to those people who matter.
Before I can do that, I have to FOCUS. Focus on getting my To Do list done. Focus on starting things NOW instead of putting them off for later. That’s easier said than done, but I also feel like blogging about it can help me focus more given that I have witnesses to call me out on my BS if I still don’t get these things done by next week’s Soupie.
So yeah, monitor it for me please. LOL.
“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.” ~ 2 Corinthians 5:17
God gives us the opportunity to start anew each day. Today, I have decided to live that fact. Thank You, God, for Your mercies each and every day. 🙂
How about you? What are your A to E’s for this week? 🙂 Do share! Leave a comment with a link to your own Soupie entry or link back to this post so it would show and I could check it out! 🙂