Today, I had the opportunity of watching Eat, Pray, Love. I originally just wanted to see what all the fuss was about but a couple of minutes into the movie, I knew that it would consequently lead to my thinking about things (and life in general).
I was struck by the great epiphany Liz Gilbert had at the end of the movie, which goes as follows:
In the end, I’ve come to believe in something I call “The Physics of the Quest.” A force in nature governed by laws as real as the laws of gravity. The rule of Quest Physics goes something like this: If you’re brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting, which can be anything from your house to bitter, old resentments, and set out on a truth-seeking journey, either externally or internally, and if you are truly willing to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue and if you accept everyone you meet along the way as a teacher and if you are prepared, most of all, to face and forgive some very difficult realities about yourself, then the truth will not be withheld from you.
One thing I would like to share as early as now: I am a cancer survivor. I was diagnosed with Hodgkin’s Lymphoma in February 2010 and I underwent therapy for more or less 8 months. In those 8 months, I promised myself that I would get better and that once I did, I would live my life to the fullest.
Right now I am a corporate slave. When I started, that was my idea of “living”. And then I realized a while back that I was doing it all wrong.
You know how people in movies find out they’re about to die and they realize they have to make the most of the time they have left? That’s exactly how I felt when I underwent treatment. And then I got better. And I continued where I left off before I got sick — I went looking for a job. A few months into my new job, though, I realized this wasn’t what I wanted to do. This wasn’t what I pictured myself doing after going through all that hardship. I was supposed to travel the world! Meet new people! Share my talents and become an inspiration!
But everything’s easier said than done, isn’t it?
Before I can travel the world, I need to have money. In order to earn money, I need to work. Right now, I’m earning money but I’m also subjecting myself to all this unwanted stress — which not only makes me unhappy but also poses a great threat to my health. But I can’t quit just yet. Why? Because I need money to travel the world, meet new people, share my talents and become an inspiration.
After watching this movie, though, I decided that maybe it really is time to take that leap of faith. The universe has practically been giving me signs!
A month ago, I told my boss that I would be sticking to my end of contract date and that I would probably not be extending anymore if they ever decide to keep me. The past few weeks, though, I’ve been weighing whether my decision would really be a good one or not. Practically speaking, I was committing career suicide. On the other hand, like what Liz said, if you’re brave enough to let go of the familiar, you’ll find just what you’re looking for. It seems like such a hard concept to grasp but I’m hoping that when the time comes (tick tock, 1 month goes the clock), I’d be able to be firm on my decision to let go and live the life I may not have planned out too well but have to go through (for sanity).
Here’s to Quest Physics. Eat, Pray, Love with me?