Today, my parents and I attended The Feast Alabang’s Lenten Recollection. We first participated in this last year and I was very grateful that I did, ’cause it touched on particular issues I was facing at that time. (Here were my learnings and reflections on days 1, 2, and 3.)
Before I talk about God’s message for me today, let me first tell you about what happened last night after typing this blog entry.
After a seemingly long day, my boyfriend and I got to talk over the phone and I opened up to him about the bad thoughts I was entertaining in my mind (due to PMS — LOL blame pa more). Needless to say, at the end of our conversation, I was assured that I wasn’t being irrational (oh Lord, what have I done to deserve such a wonderful partner? T_T).
Anyway, one of the things I/we concluded is that I should just learn to accept that with certain people, say, in a group, there would always be ones who would be more favored, and that it may just not be me most of the time (especially with my fiercely blunt attitude and all, hahahuhu whatevs).
Which brings us back to The Feast. Man oh man, was God trying to tell me something today through Bro. J Yogawin and his topic entitled (surprise, surprise): FAVORED.
Like. What. When I saw that on screen I was all, “K, LORD, NOTED PO.”
Bro. J highlighted this verse from the bible:
Before I formed you in the womb I knew you,
before you were born I set you apart;
I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.
~ Jeremiah 1:5
He said that if we rely on the words of MAN instead of the words of GOD, we will always feel worthless and less favored. This is true, and something I really needed to hear. Indeed, if you base your standards on the standards of this world, base your happiness on whether or not you are favored by the people around you, you will always feel empty, lost, and worthless. But if you remember that you are FAVORED BY GOD, the MOST IMPORTANT, the MOST HIGH who created you and SET YOU APART even before you were born; who loves You and gives you grace and an abundance of blessings you don’t deserve due to your sinfulness, you will realize that you are indeed WORTHY. That you are LOVED. FAVORED.
Couldn’t help but cry after all that. Just. K, Lord. K.
Other lines I loved from today were these:
I was saved because I came to know more of a Lord who loves me for who I am.
~ Bro. James Nicolas
And one from Fr. Arnel Aquino, who touched on how we as Catholics condemn the “undeserving” who are favored; or how we think we need to earn the Lord’s grace (i.e. by doing something good so the Lord would reward us) when He gives His undeserving grace to us all the time. Sense.
Jesus redeemed you and not accused you.
Thank You, Lord. You never let a day pass without affirming me and reminding me of Your endless love. I am undeserving of Your grace, but You still continue to give it to me every single day. Thank You, Father, for Your mercy. Thank You for sending Your Son to redeem us. Thank You for favoring us and setting us apart. I love you.